In the same way that my sweet baby boy can be easily distracted by something as simple as a rattle, I find my heart and mind easily distracted by the things of this world. Lately I've been asking myself these kinds of questions....What are you really living for? Do you realize that your life is a vapor..here for a little while and then gone? What are you doing of eternal value?
I'm a stay at home mom and constantly needing to remind myself that this world is ultimately not my home! I was created by God and for God. Sooo, through the mundane daily things how can I be making much of my Savior Jesus? He died so that I may live! What does that look like in our home? Well, I would love to say that it causes me to have a content spirit and deep joy even in something as disgusting as changing a diaper or cleaning the toilet. To serve my sweet husband expecting nothing in return or honoring and respecting him with my every word and attitude unconditionally. I would love to say that it means I spend my time looking for ways to bless others and make them comfortable rather than considering myself as more important. But I have to confess that I fall very short of what God has called me to be...as a wife, mother, and friend. I find my thoughts very self-focused, my heart judgmental and arrogant, and my actions more hurtful than helpful. Praise be to God that He uses weak sinful people like me! God's Word says that when we confess our sins He is faithful and just to forgive us and cleanse us from all unrighteousness. I have been trying to live up to Gods standards all on my own and have been failing miserably. He has given me the Holy Spirit so that I can turn from these selfish sinful ways and walk in holiness by His grace. Oh how I pray that my life would be marked by prayer and that I would meditate on God's Word day and night! We truly are dependent on Him for all things.
Lets see...what has been going on in our lives... Laedin has found his voice! It is so great watching him discover all the different sounds that he can make. My favorite is his belly laugh :) We have thankfully moved into our two bedroom apartment sooner than we had expected to. Laedin loves having his own room and we do too! My older sister Karen has had her twin boys (who weren't due until July) Alexander died in utero and the Lord is currently preserving Brandon's precious life in the NICU. It is so hard to see loved ones go through such difficulty but I trust that God can use even the most painful trials for good. I mean, I think of how He sent His only Son to die a terrible death so that we can have our sins forgiven! His ways are not our ways- they are much higher and wiser. My parents are moving to Arizona - Wow. Hard to believe but its true. Ryan still works funky hours and weird shifts at two different hospitals. He is registered to start school the beginning of June. Crazy! Not sure if I'm ready for it but I know the Lord will sustain us!
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